Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Fruits of My Labour

They may make me more than a lot crazy (A LOT of the time) but they are some seriously good looking boys.

Haiden Jay
(12 years old & likes to inform me that he's "nearly a teenager")
(PFFFFFTT.....I don't care)

Chayse Jarvas
(My 9 year old pent up volcano)

Brigham James
(My 8 year old ever thinker)
Slader Jess
(By far.....My ditziest blond busy-bodying 3 year old EVER)
Gosh I love this picture.
Not hard to see who's Boss.

Thursday, April 4, 2013

You ARE Amazing!!!!!!

So this started out as a Facebook status & then I thought it would be better as a blog post...So here it is.
If Facebook has done anything for me over the years it is 2 things.

#1  Make me think I am a horrible mom, wife or woman when I read & cheer on the AMAZING accomplishments of sooooooo many of you fabulous moms, wives & women.


#2  Make me think I'm an amazing mom, wife or woman when I read & STILL (hopefully) cheer on the things that you STILL fabulous moms, wives & women see as short-coming & virtual failures in your abilities to be EVERYTHING the world expects you to be.

If you are a dad, husband & man reading this please insert the masculine into those feminine titles.
YOU ARE AMAZING!!!!!!  Thank you for being in my life.

Thursday, March 7, 2013

You Are Not Trusted.....

Nearly 12 1/2 years ago, someone said something to me that was said with such conviction, that I had no other choice but to believe that she actually meant what she was saying.  I didn't comply with what she said to me, but it was intensely hurtful & I honestly believe intended to be as such.  (It sometimes still strikes a sensitive chord if I think on it too long.)

It doesn't matter what was said, but it caused me to consciously stop doing something that most women are really bad for doing.....I worked really hard not to wonder what people meant when they would say things to or about me whether it was positive or negative . To stop "reading between the lines" so to speak.

For so long, it has been liberating not worrying that things mean more, less or different than the words that actually come out of people's mouths.  I haven't been bothered to think "Does someone REALLY think THIS or THAT?".......If something was said, that's what was meant.

I am mostly paranoid & fairly skeptical by nature so it has been a difficult balancing act, but worthwhile....& a great blessing.......until now........

I started feeling like I didn't & couldn't trust ANYONE....& I mean ANYONE....even the obvious people that in my heart I know, are NOT out to get me.  I felt as though there was some sort of conspiracy that everyone, (except me...of course) was in on, to lead me into some false sense of security.

I tend to receive an overwhelming amount of "compliments" about a wide assortment of things but that hasn't mattered, I've been hearing the exact opposite of what people are saying.

That's the short version of a long & mentally frustrating & exhausting story.  So Ta-Da...I blogged.

It's totally not funny & it's not easy right now.....but basically...... You are not trusted!!!  No offense.